I’ve been trying to have happy thoughts, but the darkness dyed my heart.
It aches for a man who might not love me.
When did I get so paranoid?
I know I’m pushing him away, but I just don’t know how to stop.
I feel like I broke a promise to myself.
I guess I did.
When did I become the thing I hate?
I’m disgusted with myself. I stopped looking in the mirror cause I couldn’t stomach the sight of what I saw staring back at me.
My wrists itch no matter what I do.
I’ve crossed the T’s and dotted the I’s.
I made my bed a long time ago. It’s time to go to sleep.