He smiles because of me. Me, I make him smile! I’m so happy. I don’t feel worthless anymore. We were walking together today, I was smiling so hard I almost cried. I just feel so safe and free with him. I don’t have to be on guard around him because the past doesn’t matter anymore. I just wish I could hold his hand. We walk so close together and it takes everything I have to not reach out for his hand. I know how weird and creepy that sounds. I love being around him. Damn that smile of his, it’s making me loose my mind.